What's Up...
I know I haven't written in awhile, I guess I just don't know what to write about lately. This blog begin as a way for me to write about my feelings (about my life in general) and to connect with other women who are TTC and then it quickly turned into a pregnancy blog which ended after only 7 weeks and now it is hard to figure out how to go backwards.
It isn't like there isn't stuff going on in our lives right now, but I guess I am sad about how things have turned out lately. We do have stressful stuff we are currently dealing with like no full-time job for E seen his layoff in April - sad and frustrating - I hate this economy. Grief from the miscarriage - I think, more so me since I was the one going through it - not to say E wasn't hurt and sad as well, but men have a different way of dealing with stuff like this and don't bear the emotional and physical scars as us women do.
As far as good/happy things, we do have some bit of news. We adopted a 9 1/2 month kitten named Puddin (see pic on homepage) about 3 weeks ago. She is adorable (if I do say so myself). She is a tuxedo cat and very smart too. She is super curious, as most kittens are, and very playful, but also so lovin' as well. Our current cat, Dora, has gotten better as the weeks have gone by with accepting Puddin into our household. There was hissing (and still is at times, but less than the beginning) and paw swatting (still happens, but lucky neither had claws!) To us having another pet addition is something we both have talked about from time to time over the years, but it just never came to FACT and with all the stress we have been dealing wtih lately, we figured now would be a good time for various reasons:
1. E is not working full-time, 5 days a week so he can be around the house for the "introduction" period of this new cat to our current cat.
2. I truly believe that pets lower your stress level and blood pressure tremendeously....who can't resist their sweet faces when you come through the door after a long hard day at work.
3. To find a cat this young who has been declawed (same as Dora) is a hard find, we knew we need to act quickly to secure her.
4. With no baby in our future, we (or maybe more I) needed something to nuture and watch grow...plain and simple.
5. A playmate for Dora (our current cat) - even though this is slowly happening over time now.
We are also so so looking forward to our trip out to Arizona to see E's parents. Not only will we get to see them, but also taking a trip to Laughlin, NV for a couple of days with them and then E and I will drive 1 1/2 hours to Las Vegas to met up with my two nieces (who currently live in Montana). I am so so excited because I haven't seen them since December 2009. My one niece is graduating high school and will be heading off to college in the fall in Montana. I have a good feeling about this trip and one I know we both need and deserve after all we have been through these last couple of months.
I feeling mentally and emotionally weighted down lately which in turn has made me physically not well. I think I am currently fighting a sinus/cold. I feel tired alot and I really think that has to do with the weather and the changes in hormones that happens after miscarriage plus I am now back on the BP as well. My job is very demanding which doesn't help at all too. Some days, I just want to scream at the top of my lungs...why why why, but most of the time I just end up keeping it inside. I am counting down the days till vacation...sunshine, relaxation, family and good times...I know they are just around the corner.
It isn't like there isn't stuff going on in our lives right now, but I guess I am sad about how things have turned out lately. We do have stressful stuff we are currently dealing with like no full-time job for E seen his layoff in April - sad and frustrating - I hate this economy. Grief from the miscarriage - I think, more so me since I was the one going through it - not to say E wasn't hurt and sad as well, but men have a different way of dealing with stuff like this and don't bear the emotional and physical scars as us women do.
As far as good/happy things, we do have some bit of news. We adopted a 9 1/2 month kitten named Puddin (see pic on homepage) about 3 weeks ago. She is adorable (if I do say so myself). She is a tuxedo cat and very smart too. She is super curious, as most kittens are, and very playful, but also so lovin' as well. Our current cat, Dora, has gotten better as the weeks have gone by with accepting Puddin into our household. There was hissing (and still is at times, but less than the beginning) and paw swatting (still happens, but lucky neither had claws!) To us having another pet addition is something we both have talked about from time to time over the years, but it just never came to FACT and with all the stress we have been dealing wtih lately, we figured now would be a good time for various reasons:
1. E is not working full-time, 5 days a week so he can be around the house for the "introduction" period of this new cat to our current cat.
2. I truly believe that pets lower your stress level and blood pressure tremendeously....who can't resist their sweet faces when you come through the door after a long hard day at work.
3. To find a cat this young who has been declawed (same as Dora) is a hard find, we knew we need to act quickly to secure her.
4. With no baby in our future, we (or maybe more I) needed something to nuture and watch grow...plain and simple.
5. A playmate for Dora (our current cat) - even though this is slowly happening over time now.
We are also so so looking forward to our trip out to Arizona to see E's parents. Not only will we get to see them, but also taking a trip to Laughlin, NV for a couple of days with them and then E and I will drive 1 1/2 hours to Las Vegas to met up with my two nieces (who currently live in Montana). I am so so excited because I haven't seen them since December 2009. My one niece is graduating high school and will be heading off to college in the fall in Montana. I have a good feeling about this trip and one I know we both need and deserve after all we have been through these last couple of months.
I feeling mentally and emotionally weighted down lately which in turn has made me physically not well. I think I am currently fighting a sinus/cold. I feel tired alot and I really think that has to do with the weather and the changes in hormones that happens after miscarriage plus I am now back on the BP as well. My job is very demanding which doesn't help at all too. Some days, I just want to scream at the top of my lungs...why why why, but most of the time I just end up keeping it inside. I am counting down the days till vacation...sunshine, relaxation, family and good times...I know they are just around the corner.
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