Got to Get Motivated....
I really need to get motivated to lose weight again. Since the miscarriage in late March, I had initially lost between 5-7 pounds, but now we are 3 months from that time, I have put back on that weight...UGH. I feel tired and just plain not interested in trying to exercise, let alone trying to watch what I eat. I do pretty good here at work because I have only certain foods like crackers and trail mix in my desk drawer, but at home it is a whole different story. I know I am the one responsible for bringing in the food, I am the food shopper. I do try to get fruits/veggies and go for the low-fat version of things for us, but I get swade at times by the "treats" like chips and baked goods.
E made some great ribs last night and I had purchased corn on the cob and cole slaw from the market. I had about 4-5-ribs and 2 scoops of cole slaw and 3 ears of corn - it was so sweet and good. Luckily, I got busy after we eat with catching up with people that I didn't have anything else after that and I went to bed at 11:45 p.m. to boot - that is late for me for a Sunday night with work the next morning, but I had taken a nap for about 1 1/2 hours and woke up that morning at 7:30 a.m. so we could get to the cat shelter to volunteer by 9 a.m. I just need to stop making excuses and get back to my original plan when I started this blog...get healthy and lose the weight.
Today, I put on a pair of black slacks for work that I know fit me much better a month ago...UGH. They feel just horrible in the waist - so uncomfortable...I can't wait to take them off when I get home. I also have to say that I am expecting my period anyday now as well, so it might be "bloat" - water retention that is adding to my misery today. I also had read on the internet regarding the kind of BC I am taking, that one of the side effects is increased appetite...oh come on...this is just not helping. In ways, I just wish I didn't have be back on BC. I was so use to not taking anything for so long - 3 years, but the other part of me doesn't want to take the chance right now - still too raw. I have an appt. to see my OB/GYN doc. in 2 weeks for a follow-up - had bloodwork done again and she needs to see that HCG levels are zero - praying! Also, have to address the issue of the polyp - HSG to be done....not looking forward to that at all. I have heard from some women that it is painful and other say "not that bad"...not sure what to think.
Anyway, I just have to get motivated and I "want" to do this for myself. I want to feel better about my appearance and how I feel in my own skin. I want to "shake" off this layer of emotional baggage that this last miscarriage has on my these last few months and get back to a happier me. I want that person back so badly. I want to think that there are positive things to look forward to in our future. I am sick of feeling so beaten down. So, I am going to start by making a commitment to myself that in the next week I will watch what I eat, not bring the "treats" into the house and start back on an exercise routine (maybe I can even get E to make this commitment with me...we will see). I will be documenting my progress like before - it is the only way to keep true to myself.
E made some great ribs last night and I had purchased corn on the cob and cole slaw from the market. I had about 4-5-ribs and 2 scoops of cole slaw and 3 ears of corn - it was so sweet and good. Luckily, I got busy after we eat with catching up with people that I didn't have anything else after that and I went to bed at 11:45 p.m. to boot - that is late for me for a Sunday night with work the next morning, but I had taken a nap for about 1 1/2 hours and woke up that morning at 7:30 a.m. so we could get to the cat shelter to volunteer by 9 a.m. I just need to stop making excuses and get back to my original plan when I started this blog...get healthy and lose the weight.
Today, I put on a pair of black slacks for work that I know fit me much better a month ago...UGH. They feel just horrible in the waist - so uncomfortable...I can't wait to take them off when I get home. I also have to say that I am expecting my period anyday now as well, so it might be "bloat" - water retention that is adding to my misery today. I also had read on the internet regarding the kind of BC I am taking, that one of the side effects is increased appetite...oh come on...this is just not helping. In ways, I just wish I didn't have be back on BC. I was so use to not taking anything for so long - 3 years, but the other part of me doesn't want to take the chance right now - still too raw. I have an appt. to see my OB/GYN doc. in 2 weeks for a follow-up - had bloodwork done again and she needs to see that HCG levels are zero - praying! Also, have to address the issue of the polyp - HSG to be done....not looking forward to that at all. I have heard from some women that it is painful and other say "not that bad"...not sure what to think.
Anyway, I just have to get motivated and I "want" to do this for myself. I want to feel better about my appearance and how I feel in my own skin. I want to "shake" off this layer of emotional baggage that this last miscarriage has on my these last few months and get back to a happier me. I want that person back so badly. I want to think that there are positive things to look forward to in our future. I am sick of feeling so beaten down. So, I am going to start by making a commitment to myself that in the next week I will watch what I eat, not bring the "treats" into the house and start back on an exercise routine (maybe I can even get E to make this commitment with me...we will see). I will be documenting my progress like before - it is the only way to keep true to myself.
you will get there - the important part is that you know that you deserve to look great, feel great - and not to deny yourself any of that happiness! Last year, I found that joining a boot camp (or here it was called boot-y camp lol) really helped jump start my fitness plan really helped kick my body back into understanding that it CAN do certain things that I thought I couldn't. Working with a partner/someone else really helps too, because you feel a sense of obligation and commitment - only works if they are either as motivated as you are, or can support you when you want to do anything other than your planned work out :). As for the eating right part, I found that once I started working out regularly, I didn't want/crave any of those extras that we love to love - once in a while is totally fine - I am a total ice cream and sweets girl but something in your brain clicks in after all working out you've been doing to say :hold on, do you really want to eat that right now after all the hard work you just did?
ReplyDeleteDon't get discouraged! You can do this!