Tough Weekend
It is hard for me to start out this post with what I am grateful for after this tough weekend, so I won't because I will feel like a such a fake sayings them.
My emotions were in high gear most of this weekend and I truly believe it is all hormonal now approaching almost 3 weeks of being off the Premphase. I have good days and not so good days lately, but yesterday in particular was awful. Very tired and oh my aching legs and back was so bad I ended up taking a 2 hour nap in the afternoon with a dose of Advil. I also hate to admit it but I have been taking the PM Advil almost every other might this past week just to get a full night's sleep because otherwise I wake up due to the aching and needing to change my sleeping position.
I have found a website/blog for women who are going thru premenopause and it is filled with comments from other women (similar age) who are dealing with the same stuff. It is comforting to know I am not alone and that my symptoms aren't something else (like chronic fatigue syndrome or MS) - boy, has my mind gone there many of times. The problem is that most women (like me) don't want to be on a hormone therapy and want to find a natural remedy to help ease these symptoms. Many of them are trying different combination of vitamins (like black cohosh, Calicum with Mag, Vitamin B, E and a natural sleep aid). I went out and got the Calicum with D and Vitamin B and started to take them late last week, but I left them in my drawer here at work over the weekend so that didn't help me much...UGH. So far the hot flashes are staying away, but we have also been sleeping with the AC in the bedroom at night on pretty cold because E loves it that way - so I am sleeping with extra blankets because it is so chilly!
I hate to be a downer, but this sucks. I know I need to give it time for these natural remedys to take effect, but I am very much on a emotional edge and so trying to keep things in check. I felt so negative about everything in my life this weekend that it really scared me. I need to get out of this funk!
Normally, I am fine with this situation, but not last night, we went out for dinner at the last minute figuring that might take my mind off my symptoms, but when we got to the restuarant and they sat us next to a family with 2 kids and a baby - I knew right then and there...I just wanted to scream. On top of that when that family left (before us) in comes two other couples with babies in tow who sat down at that exact table. I just felt so beaten up at that point...UGH UGH UGH!
Please let this week get better.
My emotions were in high gear most of this weekend and I truly believe it is all hormonal now approaching almost 3 weeks of being off the Premphase. I have good days and not so good days lately, but yesterday in particular was awful. Very tired and oh my aching legs and back was so bad I ended up taking a 2 hour nap in the afternoon with a dose of Advil. I also hate to admit it but I have been taking the PM Advil almost every other might this past week just to get a full night's sleep because otherwise I wake up due to the aching and needing to change my sleeping position.
I have found a website/blog for women who are going thru premenopause and it is filled with comments from other women (similar age) who are dealing with the same stuff. It is comforting to know I am not alone and that my symptoms aren't something else (like chronic fatigue syndrome or MS) - boy, has my mind gone there many of times. The problem is that most women (like me) don't want to be on a hormone therapy and want to find a natural remedy to help ease these symptoms. Many of them are trying different combination of vitamins (like black cohosh, Calicum with Mag, Vitamin B, E and a natural sleep aid). I went out and got the Calicum with D and Vitamin B and started to take them late last week, but I left them in my drawer here at work over the weekend so that didn't help me much...UGH. So far the hot flashes are staying away, but we have also been sleeping with the AC in the bedroom at night on pretty cold because E loves it that way - so I am sleeping with extra blankets because it is so chilly!
I hate to be a downer, but this sucks. I know I need to give it time for these natural remedys to take effect, but I am very much on a emotional edge and so trying to keep things in check. I felt so negative about everything in my life this weekend that it really scared me. I need to get out of this funk!
Normally, I am fine with this situation, but not last night, we went out for dinner at the last minute figuring that might take my mind off my symptoms, but when we got to the restuarant and they sat us next to a family with 2 kids and a baby - I knew right then and there...I just wanted to scream. On top of that when that family left (before us) in comes two other couples with babies in tow who sat down at that exact table. I just felt so beaten up at that point...UGH UGH UGH!
Please let this week get better.
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ReplyDeleteDon't ever apologize for your feelings! We all are at different places in our journey, but we each need a safe place to vent, and to be supported. You're not alone! Just remember we're here for you if not in the flesh in spirit!
ReplyDeleteSorry it was so tough, Jen. There is a restaurant where we live where we never see kids. It's one of those nouvelle cuisine places where you have to choose between the five course menu or the seven course menu. It is more like fine dining except you don't have to dress up much. It is pricey, so we don't go there often. But when I need pampering, that's where we go, knowing nobody will bring their bundle(s) of joy. I wish you could find a similar place nearby.
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