Heading into a New Chapter
I am grateful for:
1. a new job opportunity (see below)
2. having my dad still with us...he turned 92 years old on Nov. 4th
3. great co-workers at my last job who gave me so many well wishes as I left last Friday
What do I mean by this title, well I have been searching for almost a year now for a job opportunity that would allow me to work in a school environment again and that opportunity appeared about a month ago. I had 3 interviews with the school and all of them just kept getting better and better each time so I had a good feeling that this was the one (job offer came on a late Friday afternoon so I had the weekend to think it thru). I gave my current job my two weeks notice on that Monday after we had an unexpected snowstorm the last weekend in October which dumped about a foot of snow and knocked out our power for 8 days...it truly sucked because we lost everything - heat, water and electricity. I was able to shower at my work's gym each morning which was cool, but was up and out of the house most morning during that week at 5:30 a.m. because it was so COLD. I slept on our sofa to keep warm by the fireplace and to help E man the fire too. That damn sofa killed my back and I still am experiencing the after effects of it to this day.
I am so excited about this new position for a number of reasons: one is to be around children again and to be an integral part of the mission of the school which is to help these kids get help with their language based disabilities. I will be in the development area which I am thrilled about and working with a fundraising database that I had used a couple of years ago. Secondly, to have a more relaxed and not as stressful environment as my previous job for the last 4 years. Thirdly, to have 3 weeks of vacation that must be taken within that year and all the school holidays off and snow days (finally the decision won't be mine to make - do I risk my life to go to work?).
I really feel good about this new chapter because I believe it will allow me to concentrate on me more than ever before. I just knew in my heart that my last job was causing me undo stress and that I didn't want to keep going at that pace anymore. I am 44 years old now and I don't want to live and breathe my job anymore. I have always felt that since we don't have children, that there is an expectation that we will work more hours than the people who do. I want a good work/life balance going forward in my life. I have already started making some changes to focus more on the things I want to see, do or change. We joined a gym this past Friday that is 5 minutes from our home for a very reasonable fee per month. We have gone everyday so far since joining and we are really lovin it. We are feeling good after our workouts and know that this is important for our health and our future. E wasn't as excited at first, but he mentioned to me yesterday how he is feeling much better now and knows that he needs to think of this as not a chore, but as a positive thing he does for himself. Both of us are doers and givers and tend to put others before ourselves...we are trying hard to change that.
I am still experiencing hot flashes and muscle pains in my legs, especially at night which causes interrupted sleep for me usually around 2-3 a.m. and my hope is that by working out it might lessen these symptoms. Of course, I am hoping for weight loss as well. I have put on 25 lbs since I have been with E the last 10 years and 10 of these pounds since my last miscarriage in March 2010. I want to feel better about about my body so badly, because I know since the miscarriage I haven't liked my body at all and in turn that has made our sex life become less and less. This truly makes me so sad because in our first couple of years together, our sex life was so great and I loved that part of our relationship so much. I so blame infertility because overtime it eats away at parts of a relationship. Your hopes and dreams are shattered and the weight of this takes over. I have given to it the last year, but now I am ready to take the life I once knew back and change this...no more letting infertility control my life.
I have been off the past 2 days before I start my new job tomorrow. Got new tires for my vehicle yesterday and will be getting new brakes (this wasn't planned, but was told when tires were put on) on Thursday as well. Done all my laundry yesterday so work clothes are ready to go. Also, got "to go breakfast items" as I won't have the ability to get breakfast at work anymore, but the positive side is lunch is FREE and provided in the dining hall.
The weather here is totally weird lately....today's highs will be in the 60's and it is November and a week before Thanksgiving. It is very unpredictable and makes me wonder what kind of winter we will have...really bad with lots of snow and outages...god, I hope not.
1. a new job opportunity (see below)
2. having my dad still with us...he turned 92 years old on Nov. 4th
3. great co-workers at my last job who gave me so many well wishes as I left last Friday
What do I mean by this title, well I have been searching for almost a year now for a job opportunity that would allow me to work in a school environment again and that opportunity appeared about a month ago. I had 3 interviews with the school and all of them just kept getting better and better each time so I had a good feeling that this was the one (job offer came on a late Friday afternoon so I had the weekend to think it thru). I gave my current job my two weeks notice on that Monday after we had an unexpected snowstorm the last weekend in October which dumped about a foot of snow and knocked out our power for 8 days...it truly sucked because we lost everything - heat, water and electricity. I was able to shower at my work's gym each morning which was cool, but was up and out of the house most morning during that week at 5:30 a.m. because it was so COLD. I slept on our sofa to keep warm by the fireplace and to help E man the fire too. That damn sofa killed my back and I still am experiencing the after effects of it to this day.
I am so excited about this new position for a number of reasons: one is to be around children again and to be an integral part of the mission of the school which is to help these kids get help with their language based disabilities. I will be in the development area which I am thrilled about and working with a fundraising database that I had used a couple of years ago. Secondly, to have a more relaxed and not as stressful environment as my previous job for the last 4 years. Thirdly, to have 3 weeks of vacation that must be taken within that year and all the school holidays off and snow days (finally the decision won't be mine to make - do I risk my life to go to work?).
I really feel good about this new chapter because I believe it will allow me to concentrate on me more than ever before. I just knew in my heart that my last job was causing me undo stress and that I didn't want to keep going at that pace anymore. I am 44 years old now and I don't want to live and breathe my job anymore. I have always felt that since we don't have children, that there is an expectation that we will work more hours than the people who do. I want a good work/life balance going forward in my life. I have already started making some changes to focus more on the things I want to see, do or change. We joined a gym this past Friday that is 5 minutes from our home for a very reasonable fee per month. We have gone everyday so far since joining and we are really lovin it. We are feeling good after our workouts and know that this is important for our health and our future. E wasn't as excited at first, but he mentioned to me yesterday how he is feeling much better now and knows that he needs to think of this as not a chore, but as a positive thing he does for himself. Both of us are doers and givers and tend to put others before ourselves...we are trying hard to change that.
I am still experiencing hot flashes and muscle pains in my legs, especially at night which causes interrupted sleep for me usually around 2-3 a.m. and my hope is that by working out it might lessen these symptoms. Of course, I am hoping for weight loss as well. I have put on 25 lbs since I have been with E the last 10 years and 10 of these pounds since my last miscarriage in March 2010. I want to feel better about about my body so badly, because I know since the miscarriage I haven't liked my body at all and in turn that has made our sex life become less and less. This truly makes me so sad because in our first couple of years together, our sex life was so great and I loved that part of our relationship so much. I so blame infertility because overtime it eats away at parts of a relationship. Your hopes and dreams are shattered and the weight of this takes over. I have given to it the last year, but now I am ready to take the life I once knew back and change this...no more letting infertility control my life.
I have been off the past 2 days before I start my new job tomorrow. Got new tires for my vehicle yesterday and will be getting new brakes (this wasn't planned, but was told when tires were put on) on Thursday as well. Done all my laundry yesterday so work clothes are ready to go. Also, got "to go breakfast items" as I won't have the ability to get breakfast at work anymore, but the positive side is lunch is FREE and provided in the dining hall.
The weather here is totally weird lately....today's highs will be in the 60's and it is November and a week before Thanksgiving. It is very unpredictable and makes me wonder what kind of winter we will have...really bad with lots of snow and outages...god, I hope not.
Congrats on your new job! And kudos to you to take back your life, and not IF control it. Infertility can take a huge toll on a marriage, so its good that you are taking steps to reconnect with your spouse. Good luck with the new job.
ReplyDeleteGood luck with the new job - very exciting!
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