Blessings

This Friday, 16th will be exactly one month that I have been at my new job.  I'm feeling so truly blessed by this new position.  The environment I am in now is what I had been searching for the past year.  To be appreciated so much for my skills and experience, to be surrounded by people who truly care and have such good hearts, to feel like it is ok to have a life outside out your job - to be asked how and what did you do this weekend on a Monday morning and people really listen.  I have finally found the true sense of work/life balance.  To see smiles on people's faces when they see you coming and hear the laughter of children around you.  To be told by your boss, how much she is so very thankful for you and can see your abilities and want you to shine.  I couldn't have start this job at a better time of the year either.  Between the holidays of Thanksgiving and Xmas is just plain wonderful because of all the merriment that goes on there due to being in a school and to have more than one day off for Xmas.  I will, for the first time in more than 6 years, have 4 days off during Xmas and New Year's and these aren't even counted as vacation days - these are days given to me.

I also get nice perks on the Fridays before a holiday by only having to work 4 hours that day, so this Friday is one of them.  I already had plans to go out with a few select former co-workers from my previous job for a holiday get together that evening and where it is being held is closer to my job then home.  When I expressed this to my new boss today, she said she would be perfectly fine with me working my 4 hours in the afternoon with no one else around (1-5 p.m.) so I can go straight to the party from work.  I was almost dumbfounded (she trust me to do my job), but so very grateful for this, I can't even tell you how this would have never been offered or suggested at my previous job.  There was no flexibility in that job whatsoever and especially during this time of year.  I never took more than a day or afternoon off during the month of December due to the fact of year end giving.  The funny, but also sad part of this is that my current job is the same type of job with year end giving, but the difference is this job doesn't have the high demand that the old one did.  Yes, there will be year-end giving at the school and I will enter all checks that come in during the last 2 weeks of December, but I will do it in less days and still enjoy the holiday season....amazing, yes it can be done.

What has crossed my mind lately though is if I would have had this new job when I was pregnant would I have miscarried.  I continously wonder about the stress I was under at that time at my old job and in many ways blame that job even though no one knows for sure why I miscarried.  I will tell you that during those short 8 weeks of pregnancy, I thought alot about how the HELL I was going to manage having a child and that demanding job at the same time.  Just like with my first pregnancy when I miscarried at 10 weeks and E and I were living in PA (3 hours away from family/friends) and I didn't have a full time job and E wasn't working for the company we moved out there for and we were living in a rental condo, all my thoughts during that time were how the HELL are we going to manage to raise a child.  Each time some kind of stress was happening in our lives - makes me wonder.

When I told my former co-worker that I was leaving the organization and told her about my new job and the fact I wanted a better work/life balance...she turned to me and said, I have never seen you look so happy like a huge weight has been lifted off your shoulders and then she said, I wouldn't be surprised if you get pregnant now!  Of course, I just laughed it off at the time, but lately it has been coming up in my mind - could it happen?  If so, would it stick this time because of the no stress?

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