Status Quo

Just a quick update on how I am doing with the new hormones...things are going well - hots flashes are almost completely gone and I am finally not getting woken up by them, but still have the numbness in my hands when I sleep on them, so I am trying very hard to sleep in different positions, which I am finding tough some nights to make the change.  I had a tiny bit of brown spotting last week, but nothing major.  That evening I took it easy and went to bed early after we had gone to the gym.  Speaking about how the gym and the eating healthy are going.  Gym has been good, but we have slowed down in the last two weeks - only making it there twice in a week and not all on the weekends - always seem to have something else going on.  Eating healthy has been good during the week, but hard on the weekends, as I predicted.  I haven't lost a single pound yet and that has me very very frustrated to say the least, but I am not giving up totally either.  I am still using the Myfitnesspal.com to track my eating/calories and I do like that I have that to keep me accountable.  I give myself Friday or Saturday night to go out for dinner with E and not worry about what I eat, but still always write it down.

I know I need to step it up on going to the gym more, just have to find my motivation again...it is hard when daily life chores take hold and push the gym to the back burner.

Anyway, otherwise, things are good.  Counting down till our summer vacation in Cape Cod...can't wait for that.  Weather has been so much better this winter than last.  Work is still good and I couldn't be more blessed to be in this environment.  I truly smile as I drive home in the late afternoons from my new job and take in the beautiful sunlight that I would otherwise not see if I was at my old job.

I am so proud of myself and how I have been dealing with being childless lately.  I have been put to the test the last couple of weeks in situations that would have sent me to tears, but now I just keep reminding myself about all great things I get to do and focus on now.  I think sometimes we look at women who have children and think what a great life it LOOKS like they have when in reality I have found out lately, isn't always as nice as it looks.