Still Here...Livin' Life
I don't know where April and May went and now June is going...time seems to be movin so fast lately. I have been busy livin' life...sometimes lovin' it, sometimes frustrated by it, but livin' just the same. I have lost 20 pounds so far on my new low carb journey and I have more to go (another 20-30lbs), but I have to say that losing these 20 pounds has been huge for me. I am changing once again, but this time for the better. My change three years ago after our last and final miscarriage wasn't the change I was hoping for. It made me into a very unhappy, bitter and depressed person at times and food was my comfort. Now, food is energy and survival for me and I have learn to deal with my emotions without food. This journey has opened my eyes to looking at food so differently. I read food labels now and I base my choices on them. Just losing 20 pounds has given me so much more self-confidence in my appearance...I look in the mirror and I am lovin my body again. You would think I am out purchasing clothes every week, but actually I have only purchased a few things as of this past month because I fit into more of my own clothes in my closet now. I am now able to go shopping but in my own closet, which was pretty cool. To put on something that I couldn't fit in or much too tight/unflattening before, to seeing it on my body now brings such a big smile to my face. This is a huge lifestyle change for me that I take seriously each and every day so that I can succeed into the future.
E isn't as dedicated to this new lifestyle as I, but I give him lots of credit when he does seriously try. He is losing but very slowly. He tends to not stick with the eating plan, especially when we are dining out or with others. He's pretty good when we are together. I have realized that it needs to come from within someone to make this kind change so I try not to let my own desire for this lifestyle continueously be put on him. I have made it very known that for me this is a way of life for me now and will continue to be (hopefully) for a very long time.
We went on our vacation over the Memorial Holiday week to Cape Cod and the weather at the beginning wasn't great (cold and rainy), but by the third day there, it started to warm up and turn sunny, so the rest of our days were spent outside in the warm sunshine either out on the water or relaxing on the beach. The house we rented this time was ok, not as great as the one last year, but location was good so we didn't have a drive far to dine out, get grocery or go to the beach. All in all it was a good time and I so love the Cape that rain or shine, I try to make the absolute best of it.
Received some sad news last month, my boss, who I so adore..she is probably one of the best bosses I have had, is leaving to retire at the end of this month. I was immediately heartbroken over it because we have such a great working relationship that I was starting to look for another position out of fear of who would come in and take her place (or that my co-worker K, who have talked about previously here, would take the position - I seriously couldn't work underneath her). Luckily I have been reassured that will not happen, so I have rethought looking for now and actually trying to look forward to the change that will occur in the next month or so. I still have some concerns, I believe that is normal, but thinking about the positive things a new person could bring to our department. Things that my current boss doesn't have the skill set for and that could potentially turn my job into something even more challenging and rewarding...so that is my focus.
Well, gotta run and get some work done.
E isn't as dedicated to this new lifestyle as I, but I give him lots of credit when he does seriously try. He is losing but very slowly. He tends to not stick with the eating plan, especially when we are dining out or with others. He's pretty good when we are together. I have realized that it needs to come from within someone to make this kind change so I try not to let my own desire for this lifestyle continueously be put on him. I have made it very known that for me this is a way of life for me now and will continue to be (hopefully) for a very long time.
We went on our vacation over the Memorial Holiday week to Cape Cod and the weather at the beginning wasn't great (cold and rainy), but by the third day there, it started to warm up and turn sunny, so the rest of our days were spent outside in the warm sunshine either out on the water or relaxing on the beach. The house we rented this time was ok, not as great as the one last year, but location was good so we didn't have a drive far to dine out, get grocery or go to the beach. All in all it was a good time and I so love the Cape that rain or shine, I try to make the absolute best of it.
Received some sad news last month, my boss, who I so adore..she is probably one of the best bosses I have had, is leaving to retire at the end of this month. I was immediately heartbroken over it because we have such a great working relationship that I was starting to look for another position out of fear of who would come in and take her place (or that my co-worker K, who have talked about previously here, would take the position - I seriously couldn't work underneath her). Luckily I have been reassured that will not happen, so I have rethought looking for now and actually trying to look forward to the change that will occur in the next month or so. I still have some concerns, I believe that is normal, but thinking about the positive things a new person could bring to our department. Things that my current boss doesn't have the skill set for and that could potentially turn my job into something even more challenging and rewarding...so that is my focus.
Well, gotta run and get some work done.
Losing weight is so hard, kudos to you for that. I bet it feels great! I love cape cod too - am planning a trip in October.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on losing 20 pounds! It is no small feat. My husband is similar to yours. He's eager to lose weight, but wants to do it "his" way, which usually means changing next to nothing, but expecting huge results. It's hard when you're on unequal footing as far as your fitness goals, but as someone who has always struggled with weight, I know that nothing happens until you're ready. Congratulations to you again. :-)
ReplyDeleteI can relate to your struggles with food and it's role in your life. I also found it interesting to read about the change you felt in your life after your last miscarriage and how it hasn't worked out the way you hoped. And another thing to relate to - our pussycats. I also have a ginger and a black and white. I'll put up some sidebar photos for you to see!
ReplyDeleteThank you for your comments and support. They have been much appreciated.
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