As Promised - An Update....

Things are going well on my weight loss/low-carb eating plan. Still strong on both and have recently incorporated swimming and weights. I purchased a bathing suit over the internet (mind you I would have never done this before my loss) and it fits perfectly so I have discovered swimming. I always loved to swim and go to the beach when I was younger but got away from going to the beach or in the water as my weight climbed. I absolutely love going in to the water now and we have a local rec. center in our nearby town that offers drop-in swimming for $10. Hubs and I go together at times and other I go alone, but I/we usually go around 7:30/8 p.m. till after 9 p.m. when all the little kiddos are home and there is no kids camp going on. It is so nice and peaceful then and have only encountered kids (ages 10 and up) once, otherwise it is only a few adults. So, I am down 23 lbs now but still wanting to lose another 20-30. I am taking my time though and trying not to rush these pounds (this isn't a race) because I plan to be on this low-carb eating plan for a good many years to come. My new goal would be to lose another 10 by end of this year. I am feeling great healthwise and I am getting lots of compliments on the way I look lately. Below is a pic taken yesterday as I dressed up for a lunch that my new boss took our department out for:

I have begun to purchase some new clothes as there are some things in my closet that are getting too baggy, like my jeans so the other night I went to Kohl's and must have tried on 4-5 pairs (as I really don't like the bootcut jeans and that is what they seems to have in the stores) and finally found one that fit very well, especially in the butt! I also purchased the dress in the pic above too...how could I pass up a deal like this - regular price $50 - sale price $14.99!

Things at my job are going well with the new boss so far. She is into her third week and has seemed to settle in pretty well with us. Since I work in a private school most of the teachers and all of the parents/students aren't here over the summer so she still has to meet all of them but it won't be too long now as the teachers will start to return in 3 weeks and then the students/parents on Sept. 3rd. Where in the "hell" did the summer go? I just can't believe it is already going into the second week of August already. I still miss my old boss at times, but she has stopped in once since she left and she looked so happy and promised she would stop in again soon.

I recently had a dream that really throw me the other day because I haven't dreamt about having a child(ren) in quite a long time. In my dream, hubs and I were out walking somewhere (all smiles and happy) and I was holding the hand of our daughter and he had our son and I was talking with our daughter about something in a way that I was teaching her - don't remember what exactly it was, but when I started to awake I immediately had this thought - I don't have any child(ren) to teach anything to and that, for a few minutes, really upset me. I suddenly felt that I have been so cheated out of this. I felt alittle regret coming on like maybe we should have tried harder, done things sooner, spent the $$ on IVF, gone to more doctors, etc, etc, etc, but then luckily my mind took over my heart and bought me back into reality of my life now. It was then I realized that we did what we did at the time and it was the right decisions for us then and especially now...I enjoy my life as being childless and the wonderful things that has afforded us to do now and in the future.