Weird Dream
I had a dream last night that I was pregnant with 4 babies. I was at my RE office in the examination room with a johnny-coat on and a nurse came in and said the doc wants to do an ultrasound (I was feeling all happy inside at this moment to see the babies - like it was the first time). When the doc. came in instead she immediately went for my arm and stuck me several times with a needle for blood. I asked her why she was doing this and she said, well, (in a very low voice) we need to see if the babies have "down sydrome." I said, OMG, if they do have down sydrome, how am I going to handle this? She just look at me with a sad face. I quickly asked how far along I was and she replied "well about 36 weeks" and the feeling of panic set in. I awoke in a cold sweat with my heart racing.
It is weird how dreams are formed from the deepest part of your mind. Down sydrome has definitely crossed my mind as we move forward and was present in my thoughts while recently pregnant. But one thing that shakes me from thinking too hard about it is to think about my Mom who was 42 years old in 1967 when she gave birth to me not knowing whether I would be born with or without down sydrome - there was no "high-risk" monitoring or amnio testing. It is amazing to think how times have changed.
It is weird how dreams are formed from the deepest part of your mind. Down sydrome has definitely crossed my mind as we move forward and was present in my thoughts while recently pregnant. But one thing that shakes me from thinking too hard about it is to think about my Mom who was 42 years old in 1967 when she gave birth to me not knowing whether I would be born with or without down sydrome - there was no "high-risk" monitoring or amnio testing. It is amazing to think how times have changed.
I know the Duggars are controversial...but she said last week "If I had stopped having babies because I could develop pre-eclampsia again then I would have stopped after having our twins but when I look at the face of my daughter who wouldn't be here I know I did the right thing..."
ReplyDeleteBottom line...only you know what you're comfortable confronting, and only you can make that decision. Rules and statistics are meant to be bucked!