Miscarrying....

Well, the title says it all.  I am miscarrying for the second time!  I went for my u/s yesterday and was bleeding again.  They measured the sac and it hadn't grown as much as it should have and they couldn't see an embryo either.  I knew in my mind on Friday morning that things weren't right.  All the memories from my first miscarriage were floodimg back.  I cried my eyes out once the u/s was over and I was waiting to see my Doc.  I absolutely love my doc. and I knew she would be so compassionate to the point as if she herself was gonig through this and I was absolutely correct.  I couldn't have asked to be in a more compassionate environment while going through such an experience like this for the SECOND time.  She explained alot of things to me and we are both in agreement that we need to find out why this is happening to more forward.  If I don't miscarry naturally by Wednesday, I will go back to her and she will give me meds to help it along.  I'm thinking based on my last miscarriage and knowing my body, I am hoping it won't take that long.  I am so thankful, in a strange way, that this is happening over a weekend and not during a work week.  I know I shouldn't be even thinking about work, but that is my type A personality.

Where we go from here, I am not sure at this point.  My doc. is determined for us to have a child.  I am going to be 43 years old in May, so I feel we don't have alot of time to play with.  I am leaving it in God's hands right now and see where things go from here.

I know my emotions will range greatly over the next week or so as my body and mind comes to terms with all that has happened.

I will continue to wish all of you who are pregnant right now, a safe and continually growing pregnancy.  Also, I will continue to follow your progress as I wish you all happiness on the journey to motherhood.