Very Very Nervous....

When I got home from work last night, I started to spot again and this time it was on the pinker side than just brown.  I immediately went into a panic and told E which he in turn, said ok, just calm down...sit here on the couch and I will make you a cup of tea.  Well, as the night wore on and I laid in our bed, the spotting stopped...hurrah.  Well, this morning I awoke and feeling good and no spotting, but once I got into work this morning it started up again and this time on the pinker side again, so around noon I called the doc. office and told them what I had been experiencing (no cramping either) and she talked with the doc. and they pushed my appt. up to the morning tomorrow.  I told her I don't know when to worry and when to not, she said, it is fine and that I should go home tonight and pick my feet up and relax.

I am still here at work, working away, but it is so hard to concentrate.  I do it for awhile and then my thoughts go right back to the situation.  I have been to the bathroom about a million times so far (ok, maybe not that many) and each time I wipe it is still there, sometimes less or about the same.  I keep reading that if it is RED and heavy then you should worry.  Mine isn't even going on my underwear!  I talked with a good friend of my and back in the day when she had one of her kids, she said she spotted for awhile in the beginning and that it turned out fine in the end...she had her son.  She was also put on Progestrone as well.  It was comforting to hear this in some ways.

Haven't had a good apetite today, I think mainly due to my nervousness about the situation.  I had whole wheat crackers (about 8-10) with a small wedge of reduced fat pepper jack cheese and a pear for breakfast then a small bowl of Chicken Fried Rice for Lunch with a side of nuts and cranberries.  No O.J. this morning, I forgot!

I was suppose to go to dinner with a co-worker of mine tonight for Indian food, but I canceled due to the doctor's orders and I probably won't be good company with this whole situation on my mind.

I am just so anxious to know what is going on in there...is the sac in tact, is there an embryo, is there a heartbeat, is this spotting just part of implantation bleeding or am I going to miscarry???  Oh, so many many questions I have.  Praying so hard right now!