Alitte Update on Where Things Stand (After Miscarriage)

I called them today to find out if/when I would hear the results from the lab and also to ask some questions about my bloodwork that was taken prior to my pregnancy to see if they did in fact check my thyroid (which I am happy to say they did and it is normal) and also to check for anemia (which the nurse informed me that it is unlikely that this would have been the cause of the miscarriage), but I want it to be check anyway (I have always had problems with my feet and hands being COLD...UGH.  So, it will be checked on Saturday when I go to the lab for bloodwork to also check my HCG levels (doc. wants to know if they have come down).  Also, the nurse informed me that I should be continuing to take the prenatal vitamins if my intention is to go forward, so she called in a prescription for them.  Now, back to the results from lab on the sac, the nurse hasn't received them yet, but probably early next week and once the doc. has reviewed them, they will give me a call....so more waiting.

How am I feeling about all this, well, some days I want to move forward and try again and then other days I am scare of this whole thing happening again.  Even if the results came back with finding nothing...there is no guarantees that it can't happen again.  I am not sure what I am looking for right now...I am almost leaning towards and hoping that they do find something versus nothing.  At least with something, and if it is something that can be fixed, I guess I would feel more hopeful and not as scare or have a concrete reason to work with.  Right now, I am a bag of mixed emotions.

I am hoping for more clarity once the results come back.

Side note:  E got approved for unemployment benefits...he starts filing on Sunday.