Thanks for the Support....
I want to thank everyone who left me such sweet notes on my last posting. It is just so nice to know I am not the only one dealing with this. I went onto the LFCA website (thanks, Wendy) and it is comforting to know I have a place to go, read and talk with others.
As far as how I am doing...well, physically I am back to my old self (body-wise)...all pregnany symptoms are a distant memory now. The meds I took over the weekend didn't really cause alot of cramping, so that by Saturday I was fine. Emotionally is a whole other thing...grieving...you have your good days and your bad days. Yesterday was a good day, I came back into work to a bunch of things that had to get done, which I didn't mind at all cause it keeps my mind busy and the day just flew by. E and I went for a walk around the neighborhood when I got home which I absolutely love because I have been waiting for this spring-like weather for awhile now and it makes me feel alive again.
Today is an ok day, not as good as yesterday. Every once in awhile, it will "hit" me out of the blue like...if I was still pregnant right now, I would be 8 weeks as of yesteday and probably going in to have another ultrasound and seeing a "heartbeat" and being just completely in awe and thrilled, but a last I am NOT and that hurts. Moments like these ones, I just take a deep breath and try to find something positive to focus on....not always easy to do.
If I don't get a call from my doc. office by the end of this week regarding the lab results, I am going to give them a call and see how long this process takes. I am alittle eager to find out what they find. Also, am alittle scared to start trying again until I know what were dealing with here. Was it just a fluke or is there something happening when my egg and E's sperm meet or is there something in my make-up or his that makes this happen. I took out a book from our local library about miscarriages and it gives examples of varies couple who have gone through multiple miscarriages and what the reasons are. It has been very informative to me, so at least when our results come back, I will have some background on all types of reasons.
I am continuing to follow the blogs of all the women who are pregnant and I am continuing to pray for all on this wonderful journey as I love reading about your progress. I also read the blogs of those who are in the same boat as I and I hope and pray for each one of you as well. I love this community of bloggers and I have no regrets whatsoever of opening myself up to all of you (the good and the bad) and I appreciate your openness as well.
As far as how I am doing...well, physically I am back to my old self (body-wise)...all pregnany symptoms are a distant memory now. The meds I took over the weekend didn't really cause alot of cramping, so that by Saturday I was fine. Emotionally is a whole other thing...grieving...you have your good days and your bad days. Yesterday was a good day, I came back into work to a bunch of things that had to get done, which I didn't mind at all cause it keeps my mind busy and the day just flew by. E and I went for a walk around the neighborhood when I got home which I absolutely love because I have been waiting for this spring-like weather for awhile now and it makes me feel alive again.
Today is an ok day, not as good as yesterday. Every once in awhile, it will "hit" me out of the blue like...if I was still pregnant right now, I would be 8 weeks as of yesteday and probably going in to have another ultrasound and seeing a "heartbeat" and being just completely in awe and thrilled, but a last I am NOT and that hurts. Moments like these ones, I just take a deep breath and try to find something positive to focus on....not always easy to do.
If I don't get a call from my doc. office by the end of this week regarding the lab results, I am going to give them a call and see how long this process takes. I am alittle eager to find out what they find. Also, am alittle scared to start trying again until I know what were dealing with here. Was it just a fluke or is there something happening when my egg and E's sperm meet or is there something in my make-up or his that makes this happen. I took out a book from our local library about miscarriages and it gives examples of varies couple who have gone through multiple miscarriages and what the reasons are. It has been very informative to me, so at least when our results come back, I will have some background on all types of reasons.
I am continuing to follow the blogs of all the women who are pregnant and I am continuing to pray for all on this wonderful journey as I love reading about your progress. I also read the blogs of those who are in the same boat as I and I hope and pray for each one of you as well. I love this community of bloggers and I have no regrets whatsoever of opening myself up to all of you (the good and the bad) and I appreciate your openness as well.
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